A few days had passed and everything, I mean everything had gotten out of control. My life was being turned upside down and pulled out of me, nowhere was safe to go now. The group of idiots that embarrased me every single day of my life and humiliated me. I couldn't bare another day in there. Mom was being a complete jerk hitting me if I fell asleep and everything, the one thing I missed was Dahvie, man I missed him so damn much, I couldn't even begin to live if he wasn't in my every waking thought. Some of the BOTDF girls at the school were jealous and everything. Life was a horror and I didn't know if any good was going to come out of it. School was slow and I went back to the hospital every afternoon to be with my sister, we talked about things and some weren't even right to begin with. Soon Saturday turned up and thank gosh she was able to be released with me her own little sister signing the papers. She got changed and I put everything in the bag and headed off to see the boys, "come on. Jayy and Dahvie will be expecting us." She said and I smiled, I couldn't wait to hold Dahvie in my arms again, so much to say to them. Also so much more to do. One night I slept here at the hospital with my sister, I tried to memorize the lyric that Amber had toured into pieces. It was a song that I´ve wrote for Dahvie, and I was going to give it to him this evening. I really hope that he like it because…Dahvie means the world to me. Ever since we met for the first time, he has been an unreplicable part of my life, literally the person that kept me sane. If he wasn't there to catch me when I fell, and I fell a lot, I guess that I would be dead by now. We have dated for 6 months now, but my sister and Jayy have never gone to that part. They hold hands; hug each other a little bit too friendly. She has slept at his house several times, but nothing has ever happened. I think that they have kissed a few times, but nothing else. As I grabbed my sisters bags, and was just about so get into the cab, when a sudden feeling of nausea came to me. I had to drop the bags, they felt like bricks, and the ground was moving underneath my feet. I heard my sister ask me how I was, but I didn't reply- I threw up on the cabs leather seat, threw up for the third time today. "What are you doing you stupid whore! Throwing up on my brand new leather seat! Youth today, have no respect of other people's property!" the cabdriver shouted at me.
"How dare you to talk like that to my sister!" Tyissha really tried to sound angry and threatening, but she was simply too weak to sound so. It was because of her still poor lunge function, that her voice almost sounded like a whisper. The cabdriver just stared at her like she was a freak, and I tried to say something, but every time I opened my mouth, more vomit came out. I´ve been like this for a week now, vomiting at least 3 times a day. Even though I kept on throwing up, I gained more weight every single day. Tyissha told me to go to Mrs. Sheridann, our doctor, to get it checked. It just had to wait till sometime in next week. "That's okay Tyissha; we just take the bus then". But we did found another cab, which was willing to take a sick girl like me.
I felt the wind once I got out of the cab; it felt good on my sweat covered forehead. It felt like I could throw up any second but thank gosh I didn't. I soon made it to the backstage area with my sister. There I saw Jayy and Dahvie, it made my heart skip a beat. My sister went to hug Jayy and I had to put the bags down, I still felt sick. Dahvie came over to me and wrapped an arm around me. "Babe? Are you alright? You look pale and dehydrated." He said really concerned for me. I leaned on him and I saw another band with them and they were practicing, they looked strangely familiar. Their black warpaint, studded belts, everything about them seemed familiar. I felt a pair of eyes staring at me like they were almost jealous. I turned back to Dahvie and kissed his cheek, "I've been throwing up so much it isn't funny." I told him hoping he'd know what was going on. And I think he did, because he turned pale too.
"Babe have you been at the doctor?"
"No. Why should I?"
"Maybe you´re…but no, it can't be"
"Can´t be what Dahvie?"
"I know that this sounds freaking insane, but…you might be pregnant…"
Pregnant… Dahvie had a good sense of humor. A good sense of humor indeed. Therefore, I laughed my ass of the moment he mooted his theory about me being…pregnant.
"You know…I could send my assistant Jenna down to buy a pregnancy test"
"So you want me to take it right now. Like immediately?"
"I don´t want to wait about knowing…so yes I do."
I shrugged and thought "Whatever". He wasn't right, I wasn't pregnant. How could he even think about that? We always played safe, so how could it be possible? But it wasn't Jenna who bought the pregnancy test for me. I went into Dahvie and Jayy´s dressing room, where Jayy and Tyissha was…it looked like they were kissing, but when I stood right in front of them, I could see that they were only hugging. To catch their attention, because they were so focused on each other that they didn´t made a move when I walked in. I made one of those fake coughs.
"Oh it's you Wynter", Jayy said with a slight of surprise. "Here, sit down and I´ll get us all something to drink"
"Jayy-babe, no alcohol for me. My liver you know". Tyissha pointed at her liver, and Jayy smiled at her, giving her a kiss on the cheek.
"Ehmm…I actually want to talk with Tyissha…alone…."
Jayy looked confused at first me, and then Tyissha. Tyissha made a "Get out" gesture, and without saying a word, except for letting out a sigh, he left. My palms went sweaty, and I swear that something moved inside me. Maybe it was just because of what Dahvie said, or then…no, it wasn't, it couldn't be.
"Hey Hunney, what's wrong?"
"Can you do me a favor?"
"Of course I can. You don't even have to ask me what to do, I´ll do anything for my sister. So what do you want me to do for you?"
"Would you go down to the nearby pharmacy, and…buy me a pregnancy test…"